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*waves* [18 May 2009|10:43pm]
[ mood | busy ]
[ music | \i'm in love with a fairytale ~ Alexander Rybak ]

Just at teeny update to say that I am here, (if anybody is looking) my broken internet has rather stopped me doing much of anything for a while.  Although I could have done without the expense at least the new router has a better connection than the old one ever did.

My holiday was a lot stranger than most others, a bit unpredictable with some sad bits, but lots and lots of fun with bands and friends and loads of travelling and shopping. I was totally exhaused and completely broke by the time I got back but that's a sign of how good it was.

Dir en grey were just full of awesome brilliance as usual and the effort Kyo put into trying to overcome his vocal problems deserved a medal.  I just hope that having a month to rest helps him get back to 100% again.  We also fitted in some Merry and although Gara was very stiff and looked a bit pained the first time we went he improved as time went on.  Still nowhere back to his usual self but much improved and looking very happy.

*sigh*  believe it or not my Mom is in Japan right now.  She was supposed to go in April and we were going to meet up again like we did the last 2 years, but her trip was delayed.   LOL, she spent several years telling me I shouldn't keep going to the same place all the time and now she's doing it too.  Maybe one day she'll really understand why I love it there so much.

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Interesting [25 Mar 2009|09:45pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]
[ music | GLASS SKIN ~ Dir en grey ]

A fairly normal setlist at the start but what I would give to see that encore ^_____^  

3/25 [神奈川県]CLUB CITTA' KAWASAKI -MALE only-

SA BIR
VINUSHKA
RED SOIL
AGITATED SCREAMS OF MAGGOTS
STUCK MAN
GRIEF
慟哭と去りぬ
DOZING GREEN
蜷局
GLASS SKIN
OBSCURE
HYDRA-666-
BUGABOO
冷血なりせば
REPETITION OF HATRED
CLEVER SLEAZOID

-ENCORE-
G.D.S.
CHILD PREY
凱歌、沈黙が眠る頃
朔-saku-
羅刹国
残-ZAN-

4 in the lukewarm rain|cause a deep wound

[31 Oct 2008|10:21pm]
[ mood | hungry ]
[ music | Dozing Green ~ Dir en grey ]


Originally posted by warumonokyo and reposted by me for anybody who would like to fill it in ^_^

1. If you're on my friends list, I want to know 35 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine... you're on my list, so I want to know you better. You don't even have to answer them all.

2. Comment here with your answers and repost the questionnaire on your own journal.


01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite fruit?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any tattoos and/or piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a pessimistic or optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottled or tap water?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
26) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
27) Do you believe in ghosts?
28) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
29) Do you swear a lot?
30) Biggest pet peeve?
31) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
32) Do you believe in love at first sight?
33) Favorite and least favorite food?
34) Do you believe in God?
35) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
2 in the lukewarm rain|cause a deep wound

Dir en grey ~ UROBOROS track list [05 Sep 2008|10:11pm]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | soshite, tooi yume no mata yume ~ Merry ]

I was half asleep a few minutes ago but suddenly I'm all awake and interested in life again.  It seems so long until we get to hear all the new songs and I'm so Iooking forward to it ~ but on the other hand, by the time the CD arrives it means the tour will be over so I'm not wishing the time away just yet.

Anybody in the mood for translating, I got the general idea of a couple of them but I would rather have the aesthetically pleasing (and accurate) version

SA BIR
VINUSHKA
RED SOIL
慟哭と去りぬ
蜷局
GLASS SKIN
STUCK MAN
冷血なりせば
我、闇とて・・
BUGABOO
凱歌、沈黙が眠る頃
DOZING GREEN
INCONVENIENT IDEAL

4 in the lukewarm rain|cause a deep wound

Haha, I appeared at last, in time for New Year [01 Jan 2008|01:47am]
[ mood | giggly ]
[ music | Dozing Green ~ Dir en grey ]

So it's been the longest time since I posted, but it was for good reason (at least I think so)

The last year has been my busiest ever and it makes me sad that being so busy means I don't get to post on here very often and also that I lose touch with some people that I want to keep in touch with.  I really ,honestly do have very little free time sometimes but I often comment on friends journals instead of updating mine which is the best I can do. ^_^;;

I've managed to email some folks to keep up a bit but I'm sorry I've not managed everybody I owe messages to, promise to try harder in 2008.

So,  ***HAPPY NEW YEAR***  to all my friends and although I don't really do resolutions as such I really am going to try harder to keep up to date and in touch over the next year.  Yes, I am repeating myself a bit, could it be the amount of crunchy nut cornflakes I just ate or the whole bottle of champagne I drank.  The fireworks in London were brilliant (even though I watched them on TV because I was at work until 5pm) and we had crackers, some of  which failed to go bang, and ate as much chocolate as possible before we start a diet in the morning (which is traditional)

Hmmm,  I need a snooze, some websites have worn me out but I did manage to fit in the best song of the year before I needed to crash out.

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I feel like a lurker >. [02 May 2007|12:24am]
[ mood | sulky ]
[ music | CONCEIVED SORROW ~ Dir en grey ]

I am here ~~~~ I've been here for a couple of weeks and at long last I have to admit to myself  that I am  stuck here and not in Japan still which is where I would much rather be.     Eeeeew, so many things about being home suck (although I guess there are some nice things)

I had the most awesome time it's possible to have while I was away and I just never wanted it to end.  Places I love to visit, friends I enjoy meeting up with, food that's so yummy, shops that I can buy all the things I like in, and best of all lives to go to.

The first few days I was home I couldn't adjust to the change in time and twice I woke up in the night, all confused and sleepy and looked around a bit in the dark and thought "this hotel room has some of the same things in it as my room at home"   ah, the disappointment when I realised.

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At last ~ the time has finally come ^____^ [21 Mar 2007|11:23pm]
[ mood | excited ]
[ music | I have 20 CD's with me ]

The last few weeks have been so horrible I'm just bursting with happiness that today has finally arrived.  Work has been more than the usual shit and I've even been told by senior management that I am no longer worth the salary I get despite the fact that I exceeded all my targets last year.   What they will do with me now I have no idea, but guess what,  I DON'T GIVE A DAMN.  Because in about 10 minutes I'm setting off for the airport and will be on a plane to Tokyo soon after.

The Dir en grey tour in December was so wonderful I had withdrawal and needed to see them again, and I love MOAB so much I wanted more than anything to see all the songs live and now I get my wish come true ( so somebody must have faith in me).

I've managed to get tickets for 3 nights so far and will be trying for more if I don't run out of money.  Wish me luck,  I need this break so much and I think I've more than earned it.

Pinky,  I don't know if you changed keitai yet, I still have the same one and have your usual number with me.  Will mail you when we arrive.

Bye to all my friends for a few weeks  *hugs and kisses in abundance*   I'm so happy today

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Very pretty, ne [01 Sep 2006|12:34am]
[ mood | bouncy ]
[ music | Enter the killing ~ Sadie ]

Look what just appeared, no clip to listen to yet though.

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5 in the lukewarm rain|cause a deep wound

The difference 3 months makes [18 Aug 2006|02:44am]
[ mood | content ]
[ music | Ryoujoku no ame ~ Dir en grey ]

The ever changing Kyo still fascinates me after many of years of varied styles. Of course now Dir en grey are no longer visual there's not so much to look out for but I still notice odd little things that he does. I had photos from lives in May and now some from August too and the first thing I noticed was this

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I loved the new piercing, it was typical Kyo to have it facing down instead of across but sadly it didn't last for long. At least he doesn't seem to have any scars from it.
On the subject of piercings he went a bit mad with decorations to his ear in May and although so much in one ear was a bit cluttered I guess he is the kind of person who can get away with it. Seems he's already fed up with a couple of those and removed them. Dammit the industrial was the one I liked most on him.

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One thing I really wish he would get rid of is the chin pubes. I got used to them on Kaoru and they suit him OK but when I first saw them on Kyo I was really surprised as it was something I never thought he would do. There was such a teeny bit you could only see it when he came right to the front of the stage a few months ago but now it's grown into a bush and if he keeps it all year he should be able to braid it the speed its growing.

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Back on the autumn tour Kyo was scratch writing on his chest and was still doing it in May. I know it's his way of making a point but it looks so painful, and to keep doing it over and over. Don't think he will ever stop the usual nail scratching, bashing, slapping etc, that is just him doing what he needs to but the "No Future" seems to have gone apart from the faint scar.

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One thing I doubt will ever change is how much I admire Kyo. He is without doubt the best live performer I have ever seen, I love his lyrics and the way he expresses them with such feeling. Through all his many changes he has always looked beautiful to me which is just an added bonus and that still hasn't changed a bit.

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[24 Jul 2006|12:08am]
[ mood | accomplished ]
[ music | pinku-iro no seishun ~ Merry ]

Two things arrived so I had to say it twice.

First was my new car, well its not new, in fact it's quite old because I only got two days warning that I would have to rid of the old one so it was hard to come up with the money. Had to raid the holiday savings but it needed doing and now I have a cute shiny lilac/blue metallic car. I felt really guilty taking the old one to the scrap yard as it still works fine but is so rusty it can't pass the safety test and the steering is a bit dodgy. The new one drives much smoother, the sound system is better and the aircon works which in this weather is heaven.

Second thing was the parcel I've been looking forward to for so long. This is why I'm so glad I paid for everything before the car went wrong because I couldn't have done it once the car problem came up. At last I get my hands on the lovely Gazette, Film Bug 1, I did have a couple of tracks downloaded but I wanted to wait for the DVD to arrive for all of it.
Also got D'espairsRay Murder Day, assorted stuff by Sadie and Kabukicho Knight, and a copy of August Fool's Mate. The second part was further down the parcel under bubble wrap and included Kagerou CD となり町の彼女, Merry CD Ringo to Uso and two sets of Season 1 cards, latest Haiiro no ginka as I've renewed the membership just in time, at last, my membership pack for CORE with various interesting items. Long awaited after much searching and bidding in various Yahoo auctions, Merry, Gendai Stoic livehouse version, and last but very special, a lovely La:Sadies fully signed photograph.

I guess this makes up for weeks of not going shopping as there's vitually nothing I want to buy in the shops here. I'm still waiting for PEEP SHOW to arrive and have resisted the temptation to download it still. Of course I now have no money until payday in over a week but it's so worth it, but I have to go back to the dentist to have my broken tooth done properly tomorrow.
I think my Visa card may have to sort this one out.

6 in the lukewarm rain|cause a deep wound

Sends 京 get well vibes [22 Jul 2006|12:30am]
[ mood | moody ]
[ music | none, I want to sleep ]

Checked out the Diru website as normal today and found an odd message. Rather strange translation from Excite is as follows:
"Two performances that had been scheduled with Hatch on 22.23 days July became situations that could not help being in haste postponed due to acute tonsillitis of the Voice 京.
It will inform here apologizing to everybody whom it waited very much and I apologize to the enjoyment for the performance deeply. Please cooperate humbly after understanding circumstances.
Please see the following for details of the transfer performance and the ticket repayment."

Poor 京, all this time waiting for lives in Japan and then this happens. Hope he gets well in time for the Budokan lives as it would be so disappointing for the band as well as the many fans going.

When I first got the notification of the a knot only lives I really wanted to just buy tickets and worry about the plane cost etc later but I just knew I couldn't afford it and gave up on the idea. After all I did have Berlin and Cologne lives ^_^. I'm just so glad now that for once in my life I didn't act on impulse and rush into it like a mad thing or I would have been outside Namba Hatch tomorrow night only to find the lives will now be in October.

Hope 京 takes good care of his throat if he wants to get his scream back in good form.

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The Emperor is Dead [12 Jul 2006|05:53pm]
[ mood | impressed ]
[ music | Ryojoku no ame ~ Dir en grey ]

Aaaah, the sleaze of it all. Saw the Ryojoku no Ame PV for the first time today and it was just @_@

Kyo looks amazing, and his voice on that song is perfect. It's lovely to hear him singing like this again and the whole sound of the CD fits with the PV well. Yes, its all dark and grainy and you don't get to see much of the others which is a shame but overall, just WOW.

Of course he wouldn't be Kyo if he didn't bleed on us a bit, and from the nose is an interesting new concept. An really strange thing is that in several shots up close he looks like his front teeth are a lot straighter. It is hard to tell with this quality film but they just look different ~ would be a shame as they suit him the way they are. Also the clearest shot I can get of his hand looks like the words on it are "The Emperor is Dead" which may fit with his No Future chest carvings and some lyrics. Hope you like the pics.

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Ryoujoku no ame ~ 京 [07 Jul 2006|02:16am]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | biological slicer ~ kagerou ]

Just when you thought it was safe, he does it again ~ creeps up on you when you least suspect and tries to scare you with the chin pubes of doom.

This is rather crap quality but you get the idea, I left out the naked woman and flashing lights, just 京 is enough for now...

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Getting impatient [27 Jun 2006|12:59am]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | Ryoujoku no ame (clip) ~ Dir en grey ]

They always put those teasing clips of songs up on the Diru website long before they are available to buy. I've got mine on pre-order but it seems so far off still.

I've played this little bit over and over and its so nice to hear Kyo singing like that. Haha, I don't venture into LJ groups very often due to spazzy posting over almost any/every subject but it made me laugh a fair bit to see the bickering over whether this is the song they played in US and Germany. Some people think they can even tell what key it was in so it can't be the same one. It sounds really familiar to me, after all it was only a month ago and I did hear it twice ~ also the song they did live varied quite a lot with melodic sections and screaming growling parts too. Kyo usually sounds different live to how he does on CD anyway.

If you haven't heard it yet you can try it here and then join in the bitching. I couldn't be bothered

http://www.yousendit.com/transfer.php?action=download&ufid=30CC351F38CEA2FB

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My doctor is a bastard [11 Jun 2006|02:23am]
[ mood | feeling ill ]
[ music | スロ→ダイブ ~ Merry ]

Update on my recent illness. Visit to the doctor over a week ago, given medication, in much pain and not getting any better, phoned 3 days in a row to see if they had the results of tests back from the hospital. All three days the doctor had not had time to read the results. Early morning panic call from the doctor's assistant to say the have read the results and realised they gave me the wrong medication ~ hence I am not getting any better and have developed a fucking huge rash on my face. Visit to see a different doctor, new medication and after 2 days I'm starting to feel a bit better but the rash still hasn't gone. I refuse to go out without makeup on so its been a bit difficult as the rash is on my eyelids too now.

At least being off work so long gave me time to make this tasty new icon. Mmmmm, Kyo is the god of writhing and inspires many happy dreams.

A good reason not to go out is the start of the football. Needed to go into town this afternoon and there were hundreds of fat, bald, drunk men who really shouldn't walk around without a shirt on singing, shouting and lurching around the streets. There were quite a few police around to try and keep them away from other people but they still acted like a bunch of morons. Thank god the Berlin live wasn't this weekend or not only would I have been ill but 30,000 of these idiots have gone over to Germany which would have been a painful sight.

Oh and Psy-chan made me a lovely icon, which I will upload later on because she did the following challenge. I am pretty crap at making things because I'm so slow but I had to post this below as I got my icon. Request at your own risk as I dread to think what I might send you

1. Comment "ICON please".
2. I will go to see your interests and make you an icon.
YOU HAVE NO SAY IN IT!.
3. Once you get the icon, post this meme into your journal to offer the same. ^__^.

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The latest film R am R [06 Jun 2006|01:11am]
[ mood | still ill ]
[ music | audience KILLER LOOP ~ Dir en grey ]

Still ill and at home from work, damn my stupid body not doing what I want it to for a 5th day. When I've not been asleep I've been messing around on the computer and finally got this download done and watched. Woaah, I did many screencaps even though it wasn't very good quality and for once I did do some of the other band members. Of course Kyo gets a page to himself, just because it's my journal and I say so, and you can see the new ink on his hand in one pic.

Being quite honest his voice is painfully off key in some parts of this film and it's the worst version of Clever Sleazoid I ever heard, but he doesn't look too well during the performance and spends a lot of time sitting down patting his face with a towel and drinking water. Nothing like the lives last weekend when he was a supercharged rock god. Anyway, caps below for those who are interested.

G.D.S..... )

Serial Horror Show )

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Over excited and too much sugar [25 May 2006|01:02am]
[ mood | ecstatic ]
[ music | Clever Sleazoid ~ Dir en grey ]

So I really should be in bed but due to large amounts of
chocolate and a peanut butter sandwich I'm wide awake and
spazzing over how much I can fit in my new (but still
rather small) case. Who cares, it's where I'm going that
counts, and that would be .......

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Yeah, I'm leaving home in about 8 hours and I feel nervous
/excited/worried/hyper all in one go. Can't wait to see
our beloved Diru again and worship Kyo as only he deserves.
Will try not to get injured this time and keep out of
trouble but that may prove tricky if last year was anything
to go by.

Bai bai, see you in about 5 or 6 days ^___^ (goes off
to practice "dark dark" etc, how I love that live with
all the engrish)

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I have no patience [09 May 2006|12:23am]
[ mood | frustrated ]
[ music | Refrain ~ namida no doyoubi ~ Merry ]

Aaaaahhhh, the new Dir en grey DVD is taunting me. It's in the post and I know the tracking number and it has the comment paper and the groovy special keychain that you could only get at Jishuban Club, but is it here yet...hell no, and I want it now >.< It was available for download almost as soon as it was released and I've been fighting with myself about getting parts of it to watch while I wait, after all I have bought a copy so it's not like I'm cheating the band or anything, but I want to see the whole thing with glorious surround sound on a widescreen TV so I've been good and still sit here waiting for the postman, but it will be worth it.

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Its time [31 Mar 2006|05:58pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]
[ music | None, no time ]

Oh god, I had such great plans for packing in time and as usual everything is all in a last minute rush. i have to leave in about 5 minutes so no time to even say goodbye properly.

The best thing ever is that we got tickets for Gazette in Nagoya and Yokohama too.

*waves to all my dear friends* how I wish you were all coming with me. ^_____^

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Diru in Paris, Olympia pics [26 Feb 2006|10:43pm]
[ mood | creative ]
[ music | [a knot] dvd in the background ]

For once in my life I'm doing something when I
said I would, and nobody seemed to mind that
the last lot of screencaps were less than perfect.

So, onto that night in Paris that I would pay
anything to re-live as it was such a blast.
If you didn't catch it the first time, I wrote
a rather rambling review of the couple of days
I spent there and the live here,
http://macabre-love.livejournal.com/2005/07/26/

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Reading that back I was just so impressed with their
performance at this live, and Kyo in particular.
I was always disapointed that I never saw him
perform Zakuro, and never thought any other song
could be as emotional, but I really think that the
way he sung 悲劇は目蓋を下ろした優しき鬱 was equally
heart breaking. He could barely get the words out
he was gasping and sobbing so much at times and
shaking and cluching at his hair and body. By the
end of the song I had tears dripping off my chin,
and that's the truth. He's perfected this song
from the early part of the Withering Tour but this
was by far the best version it I had seen. The Final
was also sung with great emotion and I was so happy
to find both these tracks on the [a knot] DVD.
It's impossible to convey the feeling he put into
this performance in words it was so intense.

I promised to get pics of all the guys this time and
have just about managed it, although there are few of
Shinya because all the film of him was taken from the
same angle. Die, was also hard to catch as he moves
so much. Also the lighting during these bits of film
was mostly very red or blue and it made it very hard
to get good screencaps. I've spent ages on some of
these adjusting the colour and light but they are still
a bit grainy so I hope you like them.

Haha, its very rare I post pics of me,(because I'm shy)
but I really wanted to try and find me in the audience
shots and sure enough there are several bits of film
where I can be seen flailing around, soaking wet with
running makeup but looking very happy, so for those who
have never seen me before here you go.....


This place looks much bigger in photos, but I couldn't
see upstairs at the time


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Yes, I did sing a lot in dreadful Japanese ^_^


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Kyo's perfect ass is right in front of my face, no wonder
I'm grinning like an idiot

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On to the good stuff, which is under cuts due to
the size of the files

Die and Shinya )

Toshiya )

Kaoru )

Kouru and Toshiya looking good, and Kaoru and Die
almost having a fanservice moment


Oooooh )

Of course there are more of Kyo, but I can just never resist


Prophet )

Hope I havn't messed up any of the cuts, I'm such a
computer dork this took ages. Will do some of the
Japanese film from the DVD next as the pics are a
bit clearer. Please comment if you like them, it
will inspire me to do the next part ^_^

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